Hey girls! Im finally back! Haha...i think this post going to be a bit emo so if u want something funny/cheerful this is nt the post>.<

Anyway i just finished up all my hall events...part of me feel sad but at the same time part of me feel happy...all the worries and responisibility and expectations all done! yet at the same time i wonder if i was really the right person for the job=(... anyway during the inter hall games (ihg) season i cried many times asking myself why i put myself through this over again?...this year i learned what it is to be in the real world...how every little move you take you need to cover your freaking ass so pppl wun have the chance to attack you...how if you let yourself be nice ppl will take advantage and use u..what ppl will do in their powers to make sure it benefits them and their parties and does not matter the meaning of conscience...how ppl can be nice in front of ur face but backstab u murder once u turned ur head away...how sometimes apparent "adults" can actually be the more childish one...sometime during the ihg i dun feel like smiling and dun feel like cheering...but i noe its my responsibility when i took up the post...i realised the world out there is damn harsh and scary...but amidst all this troubles and problems, im glad my hall mates and seniors are with me...picking me up, giving encouragement and going through it with me...ppl i never know could be that concerns showed their concerns in those small ways...

anyway currently got a few seniors enquire about the way the hall is being run and also asked about the way the merit award board winners being decide...merit award board is something like colours award in jc/sec sch given to exceptional sports players...so it fall under my portfolio and i head the committee to decide the winners...after prizes was given out...apparently there were some enquiries about how did the committee came to this winners...to me there is nothing wrong to ask about it but if you put it up on the forum, it is like you blasting me...even though i know they have no intention to do that, it hurts to see like they are doubting ur ability...is like having ur parents slapping ur face in full view of everyone at this age...i feel like i failed as a leader and failed to meet their expectations...the feeling is damn horrible and bleagh now...really keep asking myself why i let myself get into such situation...sianz...

but hopefully this feeling will pass...and it made me realised that all of us are growing up fast...we are not the same naive and innocent girls in jc we used to be...i see az suddenly so fierce from her previous post...haha..anyway im glad to always have you guys=) cos no matter what you guys wont judge me and accept me for who i am and also my strengths and weaknesses=)haha..touched rite?

ok lah..since exams so close...dun want to keep making you guys emo...so here is a pic of me to cheer you up!hahaha

Take care ppl and jia you for exams!=)

Shaz

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hey guys...

I'm so early for my tuition..so i decided to write sthg although there is nothing much happening in my life except drowning in my school work...basically, i got 3 more reports and 2 more presentations to go till 9 apr...

glad a stupid project is over...the subj is not stupid...but a person is soooo irritating tat i felt like walking away from e meetings halfway lots of time..and i did blew my top once...i'm so glad the singapore guys go for ns cos i really think they become super more mature when they are outside...

these r some of e irritating things i can't stand to the core abt a particular grp member..

During the first presentation..
1) he scolded a guy for not putting in enuf effort when the guy was the one who thought of the creative part of the presentation
2) he scolded me and all the gals for not picking up our phone although we explained that we were in the toilet and our phone was not with us (he didn't even say thank you after i helped him with sthg..all i got was the pissed off face)

During the 2nd presentation and report writing..
1) using the 4 letter word and other vulgarities in every other sentences
2) Ogle at each girl who walk past...and he had the cheek to say the rest are not serious in the report and threaten to kick us out of the grp..when he hardly let me talk 2 sentences b4 he get distracted and nudge e other guy to look at gals...(in actual fact, i felt like kicking him out of the grp..and i'm sure a few others do too cos we were grumbling like crazy on our way home)
3) Talk abt girls' body in from of me..calling them hippos and stuff..even tho it's not directed to me, i felt really pissed that they call those gals hippos..and i felt really uncomfortable when they go to the details...(some of them are my frens!!!) No wonder gals are turning bulimic and anorexic..
4) When he is wrong, he scold us for not telling him from the start (when 5 other ppl had no misconception). When we dunno wat he is talking, he flare up when we ask for clarification cos he think we do not read enuf. When we dun ask so tat he dun flare up, he scold us for not paying attention. (MCP!!)
5) He had the cheek to ask my grpmate not to return home (in msia) over the weekend and some of us to cancel our other plans. In actual fact, we have done our part and he was the only one who have not finished his part. When he suggested a meeting, the gals unite to ask him the agenda..and guess what..do report which we have completed (it means we supposed to meet to watch him do work...) How selfish!! (but at least the gals win this time:))
6) My partner and i followed his instructions on how he wants the report to be...Then, suddenly, a day b4 the submission, he wanted to change the whole thing..when we've spent so long on it..it was e first time i had to argue so much..my partner face was really red after tat..
7) When i had to go home cos i got another presentation to complete by the nxt day, he gave me the pissed off face...(i've completed my part by then and he had given his 'approval'). In e nite, my partner told me she had to continue to argue like crazy after i left cos he insist on deleting 2 whole section of wat she and i have written..the others also just dun get y he wanted to delete it away...
8) He scolded my gd fren for not doing her part to perfection..and i cld tell she was abt to flare up..(he dunno the meaning of subtle and using a soft tone..he'll tell everything in an angry tone)..but wat my fren said is right..if she knows how to do it, she wld have done it from the beginning, not wait till last min..then he started scolding her...even if he's smart, it doesn't mean he can treat us like tat ok...
9) He scolded me when i asked him to let me think through my thoughts first b4 telling him abt my decision...he wanted me to think it out with him...(when i know he'll interupt me and not let me think thought properly if i were to do tat..and of course, i wld be interuppted when any girl walk past)..wat's wrong in organising my thoughts before sharing it...rather than making me jump from point to point without making much sense...

Lesson learnt from my worst project exp (even e proj when i had ppl mia-ing dun match this proj)....
1)if u see him in ur tutorial or seminar grp nxt time, sit far far away so tat u reduce the likelihood of having to work with him...i phobia of him already...
2) ways of controlling anger and preserving patience

haha...so glad this thing is over...and my other groups are nice ppl..irony of irony...3 ppl from this grp are in my other grps and we never quarrel b4..this is just a venting my frustrations post...once again, i support ns...the guys are much easier to get along after that..

See u guys soon..meanwhile, study hard..

weirda

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hey peeps!

sJ here....I know your exams are coming up so I just wanna say...JIA YOU!!! ^^

oh...here is a pic of law school in case you guys are wondering:

ok...clearly not a really nice pic coz i took it in a hurry but bascially, it was the Old Governement Building. ^^ The Supreme Court judges have offices there so we gotta watch wad we say about their judgments in our discussions amongst ourselves. Basically no !#%^&* Judge wrote so BADLY! hahaha

anyhow, it is made of wood and iron (i.e. old building materials) so it is REALLY NICE AND WARM!! Of course, there is an occasional tourist wondering about here and there ^^

do pop by and visit me sometime! ^^ Oh....i m DYING under readings...gah...i have 2 cases to read by tml for torts and well contracts always has the tendency to give me a headache...it involves too much attention to detail. meh...

enjoy yr time in Singapore peeps! JIA YOU!!!

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Hey people!! sJ here

really sorry for the last minute leaving >.<

YAY!!!

*victory dance*

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Hey girls,

its already march! time seriously flies.. can u believe it, its gonna be exams soon!!! ARRHH!! then year 2 would have ended for some of us.. and for ppl like rachel, one more year till graduation!

can u believe it 3 of us are already 21!!!my gosh i can't believe tt we're approaching the time in our lives when all of us have to take on so many more responsibilities as adults. as shaz will tell u, e real world is seriously UNFRIENDLY. i'm dreading it too but i guess we have no choice but to suck it in and go thru wif it right?

okok won't continie wif my cheesy speech. its just that its at night now, and its raining and its supposed to be bedtime, (which means snuggling into bed and curling up like a ball getting all snuzzy and comfy) but i'm still not in bed coz i'm waiting for my club's photographer to send in some photos of our performance to this girl from the Nanyang Chronicle by 12 midnight and its already 1118pm and i still haven't heard from him. rah that was a long sentence. apologies. i'm just typing from off the top of my head.

dunno y, when it rains i feel all literary and i want to write something. although i'm not much of a writer, writing person. (i'm more of a talking to another person kind of person) coz ppl who write well somehow structure their sentences and words better than i do. u shd seriously see the essays some of the ppl in my course can write. i tell u my essays look like a primary one kid's composition compared to theirs. guess coz they use bigger words and a more mature sentence structure hence their sentences sound stronger?

ok sorry i've digressed. basically i feel like writing now coz of e weather and coz its nice and cozy. the rain sort of lets my thoughts flow... EEEEEEEEEEEh now i sound like some emo poet. the kind whose poems/short stories/boring emo-fied novels i have to read. seriously, poets and contemporary writers get on my nerves. u have no idea how emo they are. i tell u i had to do a module about contemporary writers last semester, my gosh i just felt so depressed just by reading the novels. the only thing they all talk about is love, relationships, sex, their strange lives and how lonely they are. all these main characters all cheat on their boyfriends/girlfriends/husbands/wives and have weird theories about life. everytime i read a book like that i tell myself not to believe wat they write coz they're just being emo. seriously emo. they have these strange ideas about wat life and love is, which i disagree wif totally but because i'm a non-biased student i accept their point of view.

when i read i want to learn more about the world and people's experiences. okok, u may say that yes, people experience this emo period in their lives, and i totally agree. its just that there are so many contemporary writers who have this emo experience. its getting to be a bit annoying.

kk i shall stop whining abt contemporary writers. sorry girls if this entry is kinda long. dun expect u to read e whole thing. just wanted to rant somewhere.

shaz, azz and i haven't been meeting for our weekly lunches. :( and i haven't been meeting up wif izyan much except on tues mornings. she usually goes off wif another bunch of friends after class. these girls took e same mods together. shaz, how have u been??

sarah, have u settled in yet? STUDY HARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!@!@

and lc, rach! hope you've had some time to enjoy enjoy a bit despite sch being so terribly stressful.

kk thunder's rumbling now...

(ah! has my photographer sent e picsss yetttt!??!?!)

alright girls.. shall end here before i bore u all to death. hehe.

please take care!

-dianne.

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